I’ve noticed something within myself the last couple of days. It amounts to the pull for status – to be seen as successful – to be deemed ‘worthy’ by others. It’s that class reunion thing.
My 20th college reunion is in October. If I go, I’ll still be on crutches. What bugs me about it is that I anticipate many jokes because I was injured a lot in college and on crutches or whatever. I can hear it now – ‘same old Sue – injured.’ But that doesn’t bug me as much as the ‘so what are you doing now?’ questions that are so standard for these kinds of things. ‘Oh, I’m a Customer Service Rep for a wholesale distributor.’ That can sound so ‘low grade’ for someone with a Master’s Degree! I’ve found myself creating ways to make it sound important or specialized or with some kind of ‘status.’ And I stop myself.
Where I am in my life is right where God wants me. I have a Master’s – yes. I used it for 8 years. And then God got a hold of my heart and showed me it was time to leave that world of compromise. So I did. And I’m content. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I am prayerfully following the Lord’s leading. And that is all that matters.
So if I go to the reunion it will be with my head held high so as to not be ashamed of my Lord – for to be embarrassed with what I do to pay the bills is to be ashamed of His assignment for me.
2TI 1:8 Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, or of me His prisoner; but join with me in suffering for the gospel according to the power of God,
2TI 2:4 No soldier in active service entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life, so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier.
8/29/06: PS – The Lord knows…what a wonderful mental process but it won’t be an issue. There is no formal reunion planned and I doubt I’ll go back for Homecoming. Those things are boring & awkward when it’s just you & nothing concrete planned.