I’m sitting in the office of To Every Tribe Ministries plugging away. But I want to share the lesson I learned today.
I’m a results-oriented person. I like to make things happen, or help them happen for others. There have been some circumstances that have slowed the progress of the projects I came to work on. There’s no changing those circumstances, either. I had a bit of a meltdown in a meeting today. In front of the President and Vice-President of the organization (both of whom are not feeling well) I started crying and told them I feel like I’m not getting anything done for them. And the problem is that I said this and I pray it didn’t come off as putting pressure on them to do things (like think) when they’re just not up to it yet. They were gracious but I needed to go back to my computer & compose myself.
For the next hour I sensed an awkward ‘patronization’ (my word and interpretation – not reality) of ‘what can we do to help Sue get stuff done?’ when I know they’re really not feeling well. I DON’T WANT TO PUT PRESSURE ON THEM! The best thing they can do is rest, and I don’t want to be impatient. I feared I came off that way.
During that awkward hour I was praying while I worked and the Lord reminded me of a lesson I learned while here 2 years ago: it’s not about me or what I want to do. Funny how He keeps bringing me back to the same lessons. And He reminded me of simply this: I came here to serve, and anything that gets accomplished is serving the ministry, even if it’s not the long list of stuff I’d personally like to see get done. There’s usually one day each mission trip where the enemy tries to butt in where he doesn’t belong, and today was the day for me.
Pray for us, please. I have about 2 more days to get as much done as possible….tomorrow and up to about 5pm on Thursday. Pray the Lord will multiply the hours and increase the progress, and most of all, that I stay focused on serving, not results. Thanks.